Name: Modnex - Last Breath WIP
Duration: 161 s
Description: In 2017 my little cousin took his own life. My entire family blamed themselves for it. Never questioning what he was going through or what he may have been feeling. For a long time, I wanted to create a song where I put myself in the shoes of someone hurting. This song has a long way to go before it's finished. I wanted to share what I have thus far in hopes it inspires me to finish it.

Modnex - Last Breath WIP

Modnex

16th Jun 2022 07:52 - 3 years ago

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16th Jun 2022 07:52 - 3 years ago

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Description : In 2017 my little cousin took his own life. My entire family blamed themselves for it. Never questioning what he was going through or what he may have been feeling. For a long time, I wanted to create a song where I put myself in the shoes of someone hurting. This song has a long way to go before it's finished. I wanted to share what I have thus far in hopes it inspires me to finish it.

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dimestop 29th Jun 2022 12:44 - 3 years ago

hi Modnex, nice track, you need to finish this. for your sake not just your young cousins, otherwise it will eat away at you. ive suffered this a number of times with friends, once is to many, ive suffered pain in the hardest form, my mum was murdered when i was 15, ive suffered mental health issues too and know all about blaming yourself, you ask yourself too many times, why didnt i see this, was i around enough, could i have done more. the truth is, you never really have the answers and the hurt kills you if you dont share your troubles, its not gonna take away the pain, but it lightens the load, i done a cathartic song about my mental health here (overwhelming thoughts) and had great support from the guys, remember your not alone in this, there's lots of people who have experienced it or similar and feel exactly the same as you and your family, reach out bro it helps, take it from somebody that has the t shirt, im 56 now and still feel the pain daily. life does move on and yes it does get easier just, you made the biggest step by sharing with us strangers that can be the biggest challenge, admitting your own hurt. i got your back. like everything you done, just needs mixing down better. i felt compelled to comment mate its brave to share personal shit.
Paul

Modnex replied 3rd Jul 2022 - 3 years ago

Thanks, Paul!! I'm so sorry to hear about your mom and the pain you've gone through. Life is hard and sometimes it feels overwhelming being here. But, it's best to take it day by day and step by step. When my cousin passed, my entire family was in a state of shock. We couldn't believe he would do that. Then slowly, more and more details started coming out about his case. He attempted to take his life once before, but got scared and called an ambulance after downing a bunch of pills. That side of the family wanted to keep it hush, hush, so they put him in a mental hospital under 72 hours' watch and didn't tell the rest of us. He told his dad he would never go back to an institution, which now knowing what we do, meant the next time he attempted it, he wouldn't stop; he kept his promise.

In these types of situations, it's hard not to blame yourself, but the reality of it is, that nothing we would have/could have done would have changed the outcome -- it might have slowed it down, but if he was set in doing it, he would have found a way eventually. I'm so thankful for your support and that support works both ways. If you ever need an ear, I'm here.

Thanks, my friend. Take care for now.

BeatMaker4real 27th Jun 2022 17:51 - 3 years ago

Nice work on the track.

Modnex replied 29th Jun 2022 - 3 years ago

Thanks, BeatMaker!

pseudoble 26th Jun 2022 13:34 - 3 years ago

Hey there - I listened to this a while back but somehow didnt get to comment - i like this very much - nice indie rock vibe (I always liked pavement and similar bands just a little more grit and quirkiness but in the alt country ball park and the sound reminds me of that) - everything about this is good, instrumentation, beats, vocal, lyric, sound, it's just not finished so ... please do keep going with it : )

Modnex replied 29th Jun 2022 - 3 years ago

Thanks, psuedoble!! I appreciate the kind sentiment. Indie rock music sounds are always great. I enjoy the good music comparisons. I agree with you, I really need to finish this, I hope I can soon.

Thanks for the kind words.

Cyberflares 18th Jun 2022 17:05 - 3 years ago

Def has that end of 80's vibe
bass remins me in The The
vocals between the cure singer and the singer from the the at bits overall loved the way the vox was i think my resemblance to th eboy from th ecure is quite pap on with the way you sang it in my head anyway.
great track man look fowrward to listening to the end product.

2017 hmmm i hear you man i was a balls hair away from being 6 foot under with a virus ended up alseep for 3 weeks but i pulled through just to loose my younger brother the year later its a horrid thing for a family to ever go through and i am sorry for your loss but by doing this for your cuz has helped you in the process again good work that means something
well done :)