Description : the other end of the scale from me, yep people, this is a ballad. its for all the people who have lost somebody long before their time was due,
i used my experience of tragic loss and how i hid my mental health issues that stemmed from it while writing it, its repetitive but has fresh verses
its to Matthias music Du Bist Nicht Mehr Hier almost the same title, He has suffered too that's why he wrote the music and dedicated it to his brother. i hope i have done it justice

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  1. Pnnywze
    Pnnywze on Sat 2nd Dec 2023 - 1 week ago

    Dude this one hit even harder this time than the last time I heard it. The hole that loss leaves in u feels like the center of a black hole, hopelessness so strong that to it's impossible to imagine ever finding ur way out again. But when u finally do reach the light once again, it's even more beautiful bcuz of that terrible journey...I'm sorry for your pain, my friend. But that's what we do, we share our pain with each other, and youve inspired me tonight.

  2. pseudoble
    pseudoble on Fri 30th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    Another really poignant track (im trying to catch up on what Ive missed). You done a lovely job with the backing track and have a powerful lyric and tenderly powerful vocal delivery mate - big congrats

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks for the compliment Ian, i really felt this one, Matthias' music was great. its nice to see you around, hope all's well and we get something fresh from yourself soon, although time seems to be a factor for lots of us of late, me included, haven't done anything for a month

  3. Micky
    Micky on Tue 27th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    Hi Paul. Unfortunately, I don't have enough time to be here all the time - various obligations in daily life simply don't allow me to make music for long periods of time, which I deeply regret, but have to accept. Well, I checked back here at LM and heard your track, so I thought I'd write you something. You made good use of Matthias' track and did it justice - I think it has become a wonderful statement that should speak from the soul of anyone who has experienced this kind of loss before. So do I. You can't understand it. There is no solution and no answers. For me, the only lesson I could ever take from this was that you should always be aware of what you have in others WHILE you have them! When they go, they stay alive in our hearts. And one should also think of those who have no one to remember them... all the homeless and failed souls...
    Thank you for sharing your feelings with us!
    Enjoy another beautiful day!


    Reply by dimestop

    hi Micky i fully understand time issues, im finding it difficult to give music as much time of late, the new job isn't the job i was sold at interview, im away from home far too much, sometimes i leave home Monday morning and dont go home till Thursday, but another laboratory are interested in me joining them, they been trying to poach me, i would have more choices with them, working and training new staff in the laboratory, but with the option to go out on site too. they are based 20 mins away from my home as apposed to being 2 1/2 hrs away like my present one, im hoping to tie something up with them in the next couple of weeks.
    thanks for checking me out and showing support my friend, your time is always appreciated

  4. ve1o
    ve1o on Tue 27th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    this made me more depressed

    Reply by dimestop

    sorry it made you more depressed, its not a party track bro, maybe YOU should open up if this depressed you more, thanks for checking it out though

  5. doudei
    doudei on Mon 26th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    oh yes, putting smiles on other people's faces is also one hell of an anti-depressant :)
    oops, didn't realise the comments were turned off, that was not done on purpose. fixed that now, thank you for the heads-up!

    Reply by dimestop

    i'll drop you a comment bro

  6. doudei
    doudei on Mon 26th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    hey, thanks for sharing your story and thoughts.
    i understand what you are saying and couldn't agree more.
    anti-depressants are very useful, just not the pharmaceutical ones. much better to socialize and make music.
    last but not least congratulations on being an awesome grandfather! :)

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks for putting a smile on my face doudei, being an awesome grandad is the greatest achievement i will ever have, becoming a dad was the greatest but when you become a grandparent, its a new level, its a magical level, its like stepping out the wardrobe in Narnia, kept pinching myself is this real.
    and i'll take this opportunity to say nice chillout track bro, i listened the other day and again earlier, i would have commented but they are switched off

  7. doudei
    doudei on Mon 26th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    i am sorry for you loss and what you did here is an outstanding way to cope with losing someone.
    a heart-wrenching track that weaves the complex tapestry of loss and sadness into a poignant song. the harmonies are steeped in emotion and every word is a raw, honest tribute to the heartache of loss.
    there's a genuine display of vulnerability evident. the melancholic song has a beautiful way of encapsulating the grief of losing someone dear. is this you singing? really good, it fits so well.
    amidst the profound sadness there's a sense of solace setting in, just like when we get older and more wise and get more experienced to cope better with whatever life throws at us. like any other skill this also can be learned through shared sorrow, from the cathartic experience of acknowledging our deepest emotions and facing them head-on - as you evidently understand already.
    this piece is evidence for the strength of the human spirit and the indomitable power of music to heal, express and to connect us in our shared and at times utterly flawed yet still beautiful human experience.
    you crafted a deeply touching musical work of art. this is not just a tune, but a journey through the spectrum of human emotion and i can tell you this is a beacon of light for those navigating through the labyrinth of loss.
    it's sad yet beautiful and without a doubt a song that will resonate with anyone who's ever loved and lost. it sure does with me, as my eyes are getting wet just a little bit now. bravo!

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks for the detailed comment doudei, its appreciated, bro.
    loss and grief affect everyone differently, many have suffered loss and yes we come to terms with it eventually.
    when its unexpected though, now that's a different thing. the strength of the love you have lost is the big impact, for example a spouse parent child or a sibling has a much larger affect. and how that loss came about affects your thoughts. most here are aware of my loss, i was 15 and my mom was murdered, she was 33. im 56 so have lived double my moms life, and i still have the same questions i had as a kid, they'll never be answered, i will go to my grave with the question why? its the suddenness that does the damage, i ache for my mom, she missed everything, i have 2 children one of each i have 4 grandchildren both gave me one of each, im blessed and a have a life worth living but they've all missed out on a nan, although i do have a step mom who i love dearly, but she's not my mom
    it affected my life immensely, as a youngster you wanna be brave and not cry in front of your mates, so i hid it, and continued that for 40 years, all though im sure some may have had an idea something wasn't right but they not gonna say nothing unless you do, it was early '80's, mental health and the stigma around it is not the same now, its far more talked about, sharing your problems is a massive help though, it doesn't take the pain away but it lightens the load your carrying. doctors just wanna give you anti-depressants, no thanks. i opened up, that was my medicine, i consider myself a survivor, ive not beat it, ive learnt to live with it.
    and yes that is me singing, Matthias produced the music he lost his younger brother last year mid 30's, so you got 2 looper colleagues and good friends too, put real heart and soul into this piece.
    please don't feel sorry for us, it wont change anything, just be happy for the short time time we had with them, im proud of my scars and happy to show the
    thanks for the time you gave us here, its appreciated, bro.

  8. doofus
    doofus on Sun 25th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    Amazing work Paul! Capturing the emotion, right from the soul, right out there. You are doing something I could never do. I hide behind the instrument. Not you, you put yourself before us and use your artistry to support who you are. You also got "the voice" man! Beautiful!

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks mate, when songs are from the heart the emotion is always there, i know i bring the fun ones and the community tracks too but when you have personally experience of a subject the words just seem to come, but i still need to improve my vocal well at least engineering it better:))

  9. BaoBou
    BaoBou on Sun 25th Jun 2023 - 5 months ago

    Hey, I know this one :) Good you brought it to the finish line!

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks Bou, nice to see you around. ive been checking your YouTube, great work mate, keep it up.
    it would have been a waste not to bring it, i tried Matthias' vocal too couldn't get that to work either, but its been recieved ok, so im pleased

  10. Shaman77
    Shaman77 on Mon 12th Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    In my opinion, you are growing very musically, thank you

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks for your kind words Alex, i think we are all improving as we grow and build our friendships, its a nice feeling for me personally when another tells me im growing thankyou bro

  11. xstokes
    xstokes on Thu 8th Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Hullo Paul, its an hour before sunup here, but youve already brought the true light of day to me with this lovely tune. you and Matthias express a sadness i think most of we the living have to bear, and in articulating it make it a less lonely burden. you always connect, mate. hope things are all well brother.

    Reply by dimestop

    cheers for the listen Mike, unexpected loss is something that you never really get over, tragic loss always leaves questions, bottling it up is the worst thing tho, be open it is less of a burden, others become more open then, yes of course you have to move on, you carry the scars, be proud of them , dont hide

    CINCOCENT on Wed 7th Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Great beat you seem to have capture the balance on sound with beat and vocals good work.
    I think your a tad off sync tho just a tad

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks for the time bro, sorted that tad out too thanks Cinco

  13. Prodambien
    Prodambien on Mon 5th Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Gorgeous work, losing anyone is extremely terrible.

    Reply by dimestop

    yeah its tough, thanks for the listen and comment bro, its appreciated greatly

  14. 2Sisters
    2Sisters on Sun 4th Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Thanks for your great compliment Paul. I just like being here and no better than others here. Greetings Manuela

    Reply by dimestop

    yeah me too, Manuela, i enjoy it too. long may it continue

  15. kingmt77
    kingmt77 on Sun 4th Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Paul I hear you. Yep straight from your heart to the hearts of hearing listeners. What you have communicated here speaks volumes. The matters of the human heart like loss and how we are affected by loss is clearly expressed in this work. The production is open and honest. And the strong point that comes to mind is simply to........ Make the best of every day and Appreciate those we are graced to have with us. Peace


    Reply by dimestop

    thanks for the listen Mark, and your thoughts on loss. grief can affect you in ways you never imagine and in the case of tragic loss, you never get the answers no matter how deep you look, now im older and have learnt so much on mental health, i now understand my own problems better, i dont hide the fact that my life was seriously affected by it, if you saw me or spoke to me in person you would never know, i hid it for years, i was afraid of it. now im proud to share that i consider myself a survivor, thanks again, i appreciate your time bro

  16. 2Sisters
    2Sisters on Sat 3rd Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Hello Paul. It is right and important to give things, including music, the time they need to mature. You see things differently over time. And I think if you're able to give things their time, then you've matured yourself. Greetings and have a nice weekend Manuela

    Reply by dimestop

    Manuela you are so right, treat it like a fine wine or whiskey, let it mature for a fuller taste, thanks again, you are a true friend i enjoy communication with and i respect you for the part you play in our community with your excellent support to all and of course being the standout artist you are, have a great weekend

  17. RitajustRita
    RitajustRita on Fri 2nd Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Yo Paul.
    This track is so emotional.
    The beat is beautiful.
    You didd a great job again mister.

    Reply by dimestop

    thankyou Rita, its heartfelt we both have felt that pain, so it was from inside us. i was happy with the result and Matthias also likes it.

  18. dubjoka
    dubjoka on Thu 1st Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    nice work soft and gentle tones set off this little gem

    Reply by dimestop

    thankyou for the comment bro, i'll take that 'little gem' all day long thanks for checking it out

  19. theHumps
    theHumps on Thu 1st Jun 2023 - 6 months ago

    Hey Paul! This is a nice approach with using Matthias' track on this one, it's a little more laid back and a nice bed for the vocals to sit in. Great job to both of you!


    Reply by dimestop

    thankyou Wayne, i love to use the music of the loop fam, i have on many occasions, sometimes i use other free beats but this one i felt for obvious reasons, thanks for the nice comment mate

  20. BeatMaker4real
    BeatMaker4real on Wed 31st May 2023 - 6 months ago

    Nice lyrical track dimestop, it's deep.
    Good job.

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks for the listen and comment bro, its appreciated, yeah its a deep track, its painful to lose a loved one way before their time

  21. phantomproduction
    phantomproduction on Wed 31st May 2023 - 6 months ago

    Hi Paul, I like the mix of voices, but what I like the most is that you sing with your heart, great track my friend!

    Reply by dimestop

    thanks Michael the singing is improving, well the engineering is :)) but the words are always from my heart, ive had and seen so much pain, ive also had the good times too, too good at times, now im loving been a grandad to 4 best of all, thanks for the comment mate

  22. 2Sisters
    2Sisters on Wed 31st May 2023 - 6 months ago

    Hello Paul, surprisingly calm, harmonious and thoughtful tones that you bring here with this song. When I hear, I moved my body to the melody very slowly. I don't know if you know that? I had the impression that I was standing in a dark room alone by a blue headlight with defus light. Slowly move me to the melody of the music. I closed my eyes. My open hair caresses my face and with my arms I try to capture my loved ones without being there. Then the sudden end of the music. I open my eyes. The room is suddenly light, the light is biting. For seconds I stand immobile and an inner warm longing is preparing in my body.
    Paul, what you achieved with your music, touched me very much! Greetings Manela

    Reply by dimestop

    Manuela your comment is stunning, the description is beautiful in its detail, to think this track made you feel like that only fills me with pride, Matthias' track has a story behind it as you know, pain we both share has come together,
    i have also stopped rushing things with music, take a couple days off and i dwell on things now, then i mess a little more, then repeat until im satisfied with what ive got, im really enjoying music this way at the moment.
    it is a heartfelt track, im so happy it touched you, that's what music is supposed to do so objective achieved. and thankyou so much for the continued support.

  23. LJmbbremen
    LJmbbremen on Tue 30th May 2023 - 6 months ago

    Hey Paul,
    thank you for this track. I dont know if it the same you have send to me before. This is a very nice track my friend. I hope you had a little fun even it is a sad theme. You are a great man with a big heart. I always wonder about the power you have!

    Reply by dimestop

    we have both felt that pain Matthias, many here will have felt it too, hopefully it will give them a chance to think about a missed one, there's no names so its relatable to people that have felt the pain.
    i dont have any power my great friend, im just a good guy, i have seen the damage that greed, fighting, war, racism you name it, does. i know im fiery and big myself up, but thats just my act, Paul the person just wants everyone to love each other, life's to short, i dont want to hate on no one.
    thankyou for letting me sing on your beautiful track bruder, im happy you liked the track too.

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