Your No Longer Here Now - Dimestop

thanks for the checkout Brado, i collabed with another member, he's a good friend, he'd just lost his brother in his thirties, i lost my mom at 15, murder. she was 33. im 60 now although it has pain in it your right about it being a little moody ive been moody about it all my life, im also angry that my mom never got to see me grow have children and grandchild, it always hurts forever when you loose a parent or sibling and has he wrote and played the music i put some words that we both feel personally. thanks for the nice words, and it gave me a 5 minute thought of my mom so thanks, she is always in my heart and thoughts tbf

Aaron i totally missed this one, your loss is a loss that would tip me over the edge, we both know what really pain is. and your track is done by the way :))

thanks for the compliment Ian, i really felt this one, Matthias' music was great. its nice to see you around, hope all's well and we get something fresh from yourself soon, although time seems to be a factor for lots of us of late, me included, haven't done anything for a month

hi Micky i fully understand time issues, im finding it difficult to give music as much time of late, the new job isn't the job i was sold at interview, im away from home far too much, sometimes i leave home Monday morning and dont go home till Thursday, but another laboratory are interested in me joining them, they been trying to poach me, i would have more choices with them, working and training new staff in the laboratory, but with the option to go out on site too. they are based 20 mins away from my home as apposed to being 2 1/2 hrs away like my present one, im hoping to tie something up with them in the next couple of weeks.
thanks for checking me out and showing support my friend, your time is always appreciated

sorry it made you more depressed, its not a party track bro, maybe YOU should open up if this depressed you more, thanks for checking it out though

i'll drop you a comment bro

thanks for putting a smile on my face doudei, being an awesome grandad is the greatest achievement i will ever have, becoming a dad was the greatest but when you become a grandparent, its a new level, its a magical level, its like stepping out the wardrobe in Narnia, kept pinching myself is this real.
and i'll take this opportunity to say nice chillout track bro, i listened the other day and again earlier, i would have commented but they are switched off

thanks for the detailed comment doudei, its appreciated, bro.
loss and grief affect everyone differently, many have suffered loss and yes we come to terms with it eventually.
when its unexpected though, now that's a different thing. the strength of the love you have lost is the big impact, for example a spouse parent child or a sibling has a much larger affect. and how that loss came about affects your thoughts. most here are aware of my loss, i was 15 and my mom was murdered, she was 33. im 56 so have lived double my moms life, and i still have the same questions i had as a kid, they'll never be answered, i will go to my grave with the question why? its the suddenness that does the damage, i ache for my mom, she missed everything, i have 2 children one of each i have 4 grandchildren both gave me one of each, im blessed and a have a life worth living but they've all missed out on a nan, although i do have a step mom who i love dearly, but she's not my mom
it affected my life immensely, as a youngster you wanna be brave and not cry in front of your mates, so i hid it, and continued that for 40 years, all though im sure some may have had an idea something wasn't right but they not gonna say nothing unless you do, it was early '80's, mental health and the stigma around it is not the same now, its far more talked about, sharing your problems is a massive help though, it doesn't take the pain away but it lightens the load your carrying. doctors just wanna give you anti-depressants, no thanks. i opened up, that was my medicine, i consider myself a survivor, ive not beat it, ive learnt to live with it.
and yes that is me singing, Matthias produced the music he lost his younger brother last year mid 30's, so you got 2 looper colleagues and good friends too, put real heart and soul into this piece.
please don't feel sorry for us, it wont change anything, just be happy for the short time time we had with them, im proud of my scars and happy to show the
thanks for the time you gave us here, its appreciated, bro.

thanks mate, when songs are from the heart the emotion is always there, i know i bring the fun ones and the community tracks too but when you have personally experience of a subject the words just seem to come, but i still need to improve my vocal well at least engineering it better:))

thanks Bou, nice to see you around. ive been checking your YouTube, great work mate, keep it up.
it would have been a waste not to bring it, i tried Matthias' vocal too couldn't get that to work either, but its been recieved ok, so im pleased

thanks for your kind words Alex, i think we are all improving as we grow and build our friendships, its a nice feeling for me personally when another tells me im growing thankyou bro

cheers for the listen Mike, unexpected loss is something that you never really get over, tragic loss always leaves questions, bottling it up is the worst thing tho, be open it is less of a burden, others become more open then, yes of course you have to move on, you carry the scars, be proud of them , dont hide

thanks for the time bro, sorted that tad out too thanks Cinco

yeah its tough, thanks for the listen and comment bro, its appreciated greatly

thanks for the listen Mark, and your thoughts on loss. grief can affect you in ways you never imagine and in the case of tragic loss, you never get the answers no matter how deep you look, now im older and have learnt so much on mental health, i now understand my own problems better, i dont hide the fact that my life was seriously affected by it, if you saw me or spoke to me in person you would never know, i hid it for years, i was afraid of it. now im proud to share that i consider myself a survivor, thanks again, i appreciate your time bro

thankyou Rita, its heartfelt we both have felt that pain, so it was from inside us. i was happy with the result and Matthias also likes it.

thankyou for the comment bro, i'll take that 'little gem' all day long thanks for checking it out

thankyou Wayne, i love to use the music of the loop fam, i have on many occasions, sometimes i use other free beats but this one i felt for obvious reasons, thanks for the nice comment mate

thanks for the listen and comment bro, its appreciated, yeah its a deep track, its painful to lose a loved one way before their time

thanks Michael the singing is improving, well the engineering is :)) but the words are always from my heart, ive had and seen so much pain, ive also had the good times too, too good at times, now im loving been a grandad to 4 best of all, thanks for the comment mate