Ashesndreams

here, the lyrics in english

since we broke up
I feel like everything I do is in vain
I closed my eyes and when I opened them more than a year passed I don't see you, I don't hear you, I'm not by your side
And how was it possible if I loved you so much

I tried to stand up and face the worries
I tried not to think about you, not to make you songs

To leave you in different places, in hotels and in bars, and in so many lovers
Nothing is as before

And I became addicted to immediate pleasures, to hopeless hedonism
And to the mistreatment
But, go try to take steps in my shoes and tell me if it doesn't hurt to forget

I tried to erase you so many times between bottles of alcohol
I wanted to rip you off but you are always present like now in this song
If you were in my place you would know what I feel
That missing you hurts so much every moment
It's been a long time since you're not here
And although I tried everything I always think of you
I became addicted to the pleasures of memory
I have lost the balance since that sad moment
It's useless today a "sorry"
The wind has taken all that feeling
That I thought you felt deep inside for me
But now I realize it wasn't like that
That only love was mine and it was not mutual
Wait just a little bit just give me a minute
I want to make one thing clear
I know that rosy love has already withered
And I know it doesn't matter anymore but I want to ask
Tell me, doesn't it hurt to forget?

And I became addicted to immediate pleasures, to hopeless hedonism
And to the mistreatment
But, go try to take steps in my shoes and tell me if it doesn't hurt to forget

true, sometimes I'm careless with that, I don't always write before recording, sometimes like this, it's improvised and it just stays in the final recording
thanks